Unbelievable

I'm only 11w4d with my rainbow baby after 3 losses but I'm wondering, does the questioning and worry ever go away. I just can't believe this is real and am so afraid I'll go to my next appointment and find out it's all over. I really do try not to worry too much about it. I want to try to enjoy this pregnancy since it will most likely be my last but sometimes I can't help but to get worked up and now I can't get myself to stop crying 😥