So depressed

Madison • Evelyn Grace born April 5, 2016
I normally take medication. But I cut out any and all medication when I found out I'm pregnant. I have bipolar disorder with severe depression. It's causing issues at work and in my relationship. I feel so grey and empty. I don't know what to do. And my boyfriend has been pulling away. Has no patience with me. Isn't being affectionate. I don't know what to do. I'm just so depressed.