The Last Three Years...

I have gone through personal and mental hell, the last three years. I have gone through intense moments of faith, self hatred, depression, and numbness. I have felt like a failure, and "less of a woman", because I have not conceived. I have been to two doctors, a fertility specialist, a naturopath/acupunturist... Had ultrasounds, blood work, physical examinations... And again I am told I am "normal". I should be happy, and I am truly relieved... Ecstatic... Relaxed... Three years of worry, at ease in one appointment. It's now my DH's turn to be checked, and it's messing with his psyche- whether he admits it or not. He's having trouble if you catch my drift. I wouldn't know if he has a problem or not... But I don't want him to be like me and simply be too stressed to conceive... It's weird to be in opposite places... I'm all relaxed and full of hope, and while he blames it on other things, I know he is worried... How do I build my husband up? We can't have a baby if things aren't happening...thank you all. I hope there have been some babies in this group!!