Jealous of women that get ultrasounds early on

I'm ten weeks pregnant this week and go to my VERY FIRST appointment Thursday. I was all excited thinking I would get to see our baby only to find out they only do an ultrasound IF I choose to do the testing for downs and what not at 12 weeks. I'm jealous of all you ladies who get ultrasounds done at 8 weeks or earlier 😒 just wanted to vent a little because I'm hormonal and just want to cry because I have to wait so long to see my baby 😭 lol