Everyone except me... Is pregnant

I don't know if anyone else feels this way. My husband and I have been "not not trying" for 5 years. All of my friends that married years after us already have children or are pregnant right now. (Shit! Even 2 21year olds and a 45 year old at work are!!) I threw all the bachelorette parties, and bridal showers and the baby showers for my friends. I never once considered not doing it but now that we have been trying and tracking and peeing on ovulation tests and pregnancy test over and over again, I hate pregnant women. I hate pregnant kids. (I see them often where I work) I hate anyone that has them. I'm so sad and jealous I can't stand it. I feel like I have no one that could ever understand my disappointment. My friends with kids just keep saying "it will happen at the right time" that is the worst thing you could possibly say to me right now. You never had a problem getting pregnant (obviously while you are giving your sweet baby a bath that took 2 tries) just feeling alone. I'm 32 and it has been a rough few years. Thanks for reading...