He's the one person I shouldnt be afraid to talk to about my concerns. So, why didnt I talk to him yesterday during my annual visit, my husband asked me. I have no idea. I completely chickened out. We've been ttc for 2 and1/2 years and I said I would talk about it but I didnt. Why? Why? Why? (Imagine me beating my head against an imgainary wall) but I do know why. Im afraid. I'm afraid of the tests, the drugs, the results, the heart break, and hearing that false calming, reassuring voice people have when they tell things we'll be okay or it will happen.

Btw, my hubs is not mad. He's just surprised I didnt get done what I said I would which is not like me at all.