My lack of forgiveness

I have been emotional about past problems (infidelity) with my fiancée.. When I communicate about how I feel about wat had happened - she tells me I'm always bringing her mistakes and wrong back in her face.. And I feel I do that at times.. I do accuse her of certain things because my trust level is very low now.. But I know I love her with everything in me & I still want to be her wife, but why hasn't full forgiveness happened yet ?

Background:

This was ongoing with one female.. I feel its still going on but she telling me its not.. I somewhat believe her but "fool me once, fool me twice" repeats in my head