I really could use some kind words. Help!

I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm on bc because I know now would probably not be the right time for a baby (at least that's what I'm told by the people around me). But in reality I want a baby more than anything! And if I were to get pregnant, I know we could make it work!  We had a "scare", and I have to tell you, my fiancé and I were so excited! A little terrified, but excited lol!  
But when we found out I wasn't... There was so much disappointment. I mean I acted okay, but deep down I was so heart broken. And so was he!  We ended up cheering ourselves up by having a bottle and coming up with baby names with the rest of the evening.
It's been a couple months later, and I actually think I might be pregnant.  By some divine force. But I'm terrified to look.   Has anyone else been in this situation before??