Is it my month?

Today I am 1 week late for af. According to glow. I don't feel like af is coming. But every time I get my hopes up or right after I test she arrives. I have been trying for 5 years!! I had 2 miscarriages before that... one at 20 weeks ( r.I.h. caden) And one at 10 weeks! I'm on my knees this month. I have been experiencing pinching in my right ovary. And excess cm. 🙏🙏🙏