Boarderline personality disorder

Briky <3 • Turning 30 this year 🙈 trying for our 3rd 💚
I haven't been formally diagnosed by a doctor. But a councilor I saw for 2 years told me she does believe I have mild to moderate borderline personality disorder. I don't have the money to go to a doctor so I just wondered if anyone else deals with it. And what they do that helps. I've read a lot on it and it really seems like what I have. I can be really moody, I have a lot of anxiety and depression I deal with. I also really have no friends other than my husband. I feel like I'm constantly fighting with myself because I just feel so crazy. I don't know this may be a bunch of rambling and make no sense but I just figured I'd see what anyone has to offer. Thanks.