Every.little.twing....

Every time I get a little pinch or pain or pull in my uterus, I get paranoid. I want to be calm but I can't seem to stop noticing every little thing my body does. We are so excited for this baby and don't want to try again. We have 3 and was really wanting a 4th. With the loss last October, I don't think we can handle another one, and we won't be trying for another if we loss this one too. I don't think we can afford adoption, as we have talked about that as an option as well. I am still nursing my 2yr old and am thinking of weening for my mental health as everytime he nurses I feel contractions and it scares  me. I just had to get this out of my head! Thanks for listening. I have never had a problem letting nature take its course, but I am really struggling this time.