Grr.... I feel played with!!

My boyfriend and I have been together for a while now and we sat down and had a talk one night about trying for kids and getting married but decided that we weren't going to get married until after we bought a house (due to credit problems) but he was all for starting a family we even went to the doctor to help get pregnant seeing I have had three miscarriages in the past. The doctor even asked are you for sure this is what you want and he was very clear it was what he wanted!! So a month goes by and we had a false positive but when we thought I was pregnant he was over the moon excited. We later found out it was false. Later that week we got into a fight and he told me all I am is baby crazy and that he doesn't want kids right now and he didn't want to try to being with but if it happens it happens. I feel like he played with my head and heart. Him not wanting kids right now isn't the problem I'm having it him going as far as to the doctor has me and everyone around thinking he wants to have a family and then either changed his mind or lied the whole time. How do I get past feeling like he's playing with my feelings??