Parenting

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bad parent because yes I have a strong connection with my son (he's a mamas boy) but I feel like I have a stronger connection with my older daughter. I know it's something I have to overcome and I love both my babies equally. I just don't know how to overcome it. I feel like if I had to chose between him and her I'd always pick her. Yes I know it's wrong, yes I've already been through that thought process. Yes I've enrolled in counseling, but I just don't know how to stop thinking this. I never want my son to feel like I love his sister more ( I know it seems like I do)! Any advice is appreciated. Ps my daughter is 3 years and my son is 3 months