Another negative

I had another negative this month. After six years - it doesn't get easier. I pray and pray and pray and yet nothing happens. Matthew 11:6 says "Blessed is he who does not stumble because of me." But it is so hard to not be angry. Why not me? Trying to remains strong both emotionally and in my faith. It's so difficult when your timing and God's timing doesn't align but it seems like everyone one else's does.