Babies everywhere

I feel like I'm being punished. Pretty sure my AF will start on 10/1. This will be our 9th month TTC. I'm being sounded by people have babies. 4 people on FB just had babies in the last 2 weeks & they keep position new pictures and I was stuck a family cookout with a 16 day old baby & 4 month old on Saturday ( SO's cousins friend & cousin). I just want to cry & my SO is " it happens when it happen" I've been a emotional wreak this last week & now I'm at work wanting to cry my eyes out bc I want to be pregnant and the cramps I've had all week just won't stop. Would AF just start already