Changed my status :(

Just had to change my status from trying to conceive (my rainbow baby) to avoiding pregnancy due to an abnormal pap result. Having a very hard time with this.. As if my MTHFR isn't giving me enough issues with fertility and holding a full term pregnancy but now a cervix that does not want to help me at all either. I hope this don't lead to a lifetime of miscarriages.... Feeling really stressed, overwhelmed, and upset. TTC for about a year after a miscarriage, I'm 28 with no kids and now all of these health issues arising. Can't help but feel like my clock is ticking and its at least an hour ahead of me every time....