I hate my body/im so sad😤😤😢😢

Ladies these last 2 weeks have been awful. My emotions/sore boobs/forgetfulness/excruciating back pain and 11 days missed period has had me hopeful and emotional. Today suddenly I start spotting but I'm devastated. My body doesn't do any of those things on or before my AF so why suddenly is this all happening if I'm not pregnant? I had 4 negative tests. I must say my so did get it on the day my AF was suppose to start but damn!! 😕😕😕😕😢😢😢😢😢😤😤😤😤😤i feel betrayed by my body.