Kinda new to all this! Need advice from you lovely ladies!

Sooo. This may seem like a bit of a long story :) but I guess what I'm searching for is some help and insight. I'm so sorry if I seem ignorant in this post!

I have not really practiced witchcraft... or so I thought! As I am learning more about it, I am realizing that as a child, my stepmother taught me protection spells and how to communicate with fairies (and sooo much more). I mean, she taught me so many things and I never even knew what I was learning!

I am feeling really strongly drawn to... something. I can't describe or articulate what is happening haha. As I'm getting older I'm really feeling like I want to learn about this and discover what I am feeling and why.

Please help! I don't know where to begin. My stepmother is totally inaccessible and I have no one at all to talk to. Can someone recommend some reading to me, or help me make sense of all this? Or just tell me I am not being crazy and dumb haha?

Thanks so much!