Done with app.. To depressing

Think I'm over it all. I've been TTC for 2 years and nothing. Been to docs supposed to get blood drawn for hormone check next AF.. AF never came.. (5days late) SO supposed to go get checked as well but no health insurance info to make app and it's pointless anyway..  SO and I don't really do it that often anyways and he's always tired and doesn't wanna plan when to do it. Says if it happens it happens.. so I'm just giving up the whole baby dream thing.. It just makes me more and more depressed every negative test I get. Good lucky to everyone else TTC. Baby dust