Trying NOT to get my hopes up!

Jacki
My husband and I started trying to conceive in July of 2015.  I had an iud for nearly 5 years removed then.  
October is a very tough month.  I actually had decided to "stop" trying because of stress and due to the fact that the 1 year anniversary of losing my only child, my son (6 weeks shy of 4) to brain cancer was fast approaching - End of Oct.  
I think my baby in heaven had other plans for me. Trying not to get my hopes up - can you see it?