Mixed Feelings

Cheyenne

We are tired of our apartment. Between drunk asshole neighbors and the nasty bitch who lives above us, we are done. We found a house. Decided to have a roommate (we know her very well) to help out with bills and to help her out. It seems like an ideal situation: not everyone is able to have a roommate they know well. But I have mixed feelings. I started having them as soon as we first discussed having a roommate. I honestly don't want a roommate, as awful as that makes me sound. Between moving up in life (this would be our first house!!), trying to conceive, and the inevitable loss of privacy (which includes intimacy in any room of the house)...I don't want to have someone else there. But without this person, we wouldn't have been able to get the house. I'm trying to stay positive about it. She's family to both of us, I won't be so lonely when my husband works nights, and she will always have a trusted person as a babysitter when she works.

Basically I don't want another female living in our future new home unless it is going to be a future daughter.

Does this make me a bad person, or is it because this is a completely new situation for me?? My husband has had roommates before.