Caught Up On My Ex

My boyfriend and I broke up recently and I moved out. I'm having a terrible time getting over him. It hasn't been long since the break up but I truly thiught I'd marry him. Our relationship got really unhappy towards the end which is way though he admits he misses me like crazy and is miserable, that he doesn't want to get back together. I figured we could try again with us not living with each other. But anyways, I heardand believe that saying that you find love when you aren't looking but I hate that because when I met my ex I was working and going to college and was around a lot of new people so I met new people. Now I go to school online and work at a small company so I hardly have a chancr of meet new people plus nobody wants to just be my friend anymore, everyone sees me as a crush so I'm having a hard time being friends with people that find me attractive because its too soon for me to date and don't want to lead them on. I'm not paranoid thinking I'll never meet someone, I'm just afraid of how long that will take and if it will be organic or not (not from Tinder) like old-school. Plus unlike most break ups my ex is my best friend and hasn't blocked me on everything so when I felt upset I enabled myself and mesaged him. I love him and want us back together because even he said he doesnt know if he's "done" or not, so I blocked him on social media to hopefully help me let go of him. He's not a first love, he's just the only REAL love... Help