Low platlets 😫😫

My platlets count is trending downward. They said no epidural for me because I'm too at risk for bleeding. If they keep going down then I have to be induced so their is a "team and plan in place" just incase I start hemmorhaging. So stressful and so scary! I was nervous to deliver but now I'm terrified. All that keeps replaying in my head and all I keep dreaming about is one of those life time movies or Greys anatomy episodes where the dad is sitting there with the new born baby after the mom dies during labor and it is absolutely terrifying me! Makes me want her to come now while they are still at an "okay" level....