I'm so happy!!

We lost our first pregnancy on September 6th, and my numbers never rose over 119, and definitely weren't doubling correctly when we were tracking them. I took a hpt every day during that pregnancy to watch the line get darker, and freaked out when it stopped. That's around when I found out something was wrong, but if I'm being honest with myself, I always knew. I was so terrified from the moment we got our bfp. I was afraid to move, afraid I would hurt the baby. I told my closest friends but that first sentence included my fear of a MC. This time is different. We got our bfp 2 days ago, very faint, and I just feel happy and calm. I don't feel worried at all, and I know that if something happens, God is taking care of us. We haven't told anyone yet, and won't until Christmas, but I am right on track with my daily hpts lol, and they are getting darker so much faster than last time!!! I'm so excited! It's only been two days and I'm still 2 days before I miss AF, and today's tests (4 of them, 2 from 4:20 am when I just couldn't hold it, and 2 from 8 am) are darker than any of my tests ever got on our last pregnancy!! Just had to share my joy!! The four on the left are today's, the two in the middle are yesterday's fmu, and the two on the right were 11/2, fmu!! 🤗🙌🏽🤗🙌🏽🤗🙌🏽🍼💫🍼💫