First off I wanna say sorry for venting out in here but I feel like I have to get it out, maybe I'll feel better.

All thru my pregnancy I was was saying I was going to breastfeed and I was excited by it even tho I know it would hurt at first a bit. Once my baby got here, I did everything the nurses and lactation consultant advised me to do. I did the skin to skin right from birth and I tried for my little boy to latch on. But he didn't, he did at first for a couple times but he never latched on completely. I didn't want to formula feed but I knew my baby is hungry and I didn't want to starve him either or not get the nutrients he needs to grow. So I gave him the formula. Even tho he doesn't latch on I still pump and give him what I get out which unfortunately is not enough for a feeding.

I feel like such a failure tho that I wasn't able to breastfeed my baby like I wanted to. I keep trying but no luck. And I feel so sad about it.