Finding myself after our second miscarriage

I have really been struggling with this one! One week before our first ultrasound I started bleeding I knew it was the beginning of the end. So we go to the doctor and they confirm the baby had died witch was devastating. All can remember thinking was why dose this keep happening? What am I doing so wrong? To be honest I have lost myself in trying to have a baby I eat sleep and breath baby! I have started thinking that trying to convince was the worst idea I have ever had and I'm not sure I can keep trying and failing. Losing two baby's has changed everything about me I can hardly walk thru grocery store and see a baby with out bursting in to tears. I have really lost my way and I'm not sure how to get back or if I can go back to the same person I was.