Can't see..

Lacey • Mommy to an Angel 1.14.16; wife 9.24.16; rainbow baby 4.4.17 && Baby #3 Due 4.28.20
I can't see how I'm going to lose my baby boy Ryan very soon and still look into the future where my husband and I want to try for two more children. I can't see it. I'm trying to see it but I see three children running around not two. :(
We have to have an early induction due to our baby boy not being able to sustain life after birth. He has shortened limbs, very short ribs that only go about half way instead of right to the centre of the chest, his chest is small and there is something wrong with his head. 
We are completely devastated and we are taking it one day at a time. Today I am 21 weeks pregnant with our son Ryan! I love him to bits and we have to make the toughest decision of our lives. I honestly cannot believe we are going through this. 😢