Anxiety...

I had a nightmare last night about my baby girl 😞 woke up this morning to use the Doppler and couldn't find her heartbeat. I started having a panic attack but walked around and tried one more time before heading to the ER... I found it I cried happy and scRed tears all at once! I'm 19 weeks tomorrow and I'm on anxiety medicine but wow! First time mommy as well and my brain seems to like to control me these days! I needed to come here because I feel so alone! My wife doesn't understand and my doctor either I feel! Anyone feel this way?