I want a little one so bad. But I'm struggling with myself and addiction right now. I had five years clean and unfortunately relapsed. The worst decision ever made. Now if you don't have anything nice to say just leave your comment to yourself. But is anyone out there in the same boat as me? I've stopped talking to anyone I was friends with and now I have no one really except for my brother, I just want My life back. I know what to do and how to do it to stop in just scared of the symptoms.