I know I'm ridiculous

So having hyperemesis is a little insane for everyone and not just me. I am very mindful of how much my SO does for me on a daily basis so I told him to go ahead and go hunting with his brothers this weekend. Of course, after he left I got all emotional and very sick while trying to take care of our DS, who is one. I texted him this morning and said I'm struggling really badly and I need him back a few hours early (he had been there Friday night and all of Saturday, so...) he texts me back and tells me he'll be back after he gets back from his blind and gets a bite to eat. Then he calls and tells me he won't be back until close to 5pm. I want to rip his guts out and strangle him. I'm sobbing and puking and I need help. At the same time I love him and in glad he's getting a break from all of my health issues and let's be real, from my crazy. Being an easygoing person normally, this pregnancy has me thrown for a loop. Am I ridiculous?