Suicidal at 30 weeks

I doubt anyone wants to hear this but I have to get it out somehow. I just don't want to do it anymore. I'm tired of fighting and struggling for my happiness and well being. I feel as if my fiancé and my baby girl would be way better off without me. He's said its not true but I can't believe it. No, im not going to do anything. I couldn't hurt my Alexandria.… ten weeks seems so long to wait.