negative tests never get easier to look at

every month I think to myself...this could be the month, but the other half of me wants to think it's not because if I think too much that it is, then it won't happen. it's so disappointing with negative test after negative test. sometimes I think the problem could be with me and sometimes it might be with my hubby, but I'm honestly too scared to go to the doctor and find out. I always thought ttc was sex and, who knew it could be so heartbreaking and rough.