Let me start by saying thank you for coming in and reading my post, I have suffered anxiety for 8 years now... I used to feel like I was in a coffin everytime id turn the light off and so on, so yes I know how you are feeling.. Weather it's because you feel alone like someone you love you can't trust or someone has hurt you before or even if you don't trust yourself I know how it feels... I've been through it all. While I suffered with anxiety for a long time I turned to drugs it was by far the worst idea and decision I ever made in my entire life. While it helped me through the days when I had no one but my drug using so called friends one day it did the opposite from help me! I had an anxiety attack whilst using drugs and had a very bad one at that the feeling I had is undescribeable and was almost like a dream I was trapped in! I was screaming, I was dead, I was not within myself... It was like an anxiety attack but 10x worse, I got taken to the hospital I had no pupils in my eyes... And for the few days after I began to lose touch with reality I was talking to myself (losing my mind) and I swear I seen the light but my time was not ready I was only 14 years old. I now 4 years later still suffer with a disorder called "derealization"... Which I can't quite describe to you because it's like a feeling of seeing the world in a 2D kind of way, like your here but you're not really here, kind of like there is a big blank spot in your head or like you can't feel anything physically! It's crazy and honestly I don't know if I will ever feel the same again, I don't know how to explain how bad this makes me feel like I have no control over myself at all...