I know I'll get bashed for this...

I'm 21/2 months pregnant and I'm having a hard time with it. My hormones are completely out of whack and I'm tired of being sick not being able to eat. I'm struggling with weather or not I'll be strong enough to take care of a baby. I'm kind of sad I'm gonna have a boy not a girl. But I'm sad I'm pregnant period. I don't want to abort my child or anything I just want it to be over I want to have gone through labor and everything already almost hit a fast forward button. I'm so sad, I just hope I don't feel like for long. 😢😢😢