So I had an emergency cerclage placed at 20 weeks, the high risk dr said he got 2 very good stitches in there and as long as within the first week nothing happens it will raise my chances of it holding! I was nervous But I kept hope..3 days into my first week I had some red/pink blood in my discharge so I called my dr and he sent me to the hospital just in case, well they checked me and said it was closed tight that I was fine(thank god!) it was probably just a scab coming off around the stitch.  Fast forward to the next week at my dr appt. he said he is confident it's gonna all be okay and we are gonna get my baby here! I felt so good about it all his confidence gave me confidence!!! I felt at ease about it all! Well I went back to the dr yesterday for my week checkup and he checked me he said he can feel one of the stitches but couldn't find the other but he didn't wanna mess with it to much but he said it felt pretty good! It made me so happy until he said that he doesn't think in gonna make it full term that he is hoping for 30 weeks 😢 I'll be 23 weeks tmrw and that just crushed me! It made me lose all hope that I will have my baby without her being premature he said let's try for 24 weeks then after that everyday she's in the the better it broke my heart! Now I'm so nervous I'm gonna go into labor and my anxiety is through the roof! When they checked me at the hospital they used the speculum but he used his fingers(that Effin hurt) idk I'm just nervous I guess I need prayers please I can't lose another baby preterm my heart can't take it! Sorry this is so long!