5weeks pregnant and So fed up

Aisha
Need to let off steam. 
I married my husband in June. We had dated for around 18months before that. Unfortunately marriage is not going so well. There are so many things that have changed after marriage. My husband was like a different person from day 1. There have been so many moments where I have witnessed abusive tendencies from him. I can't help but blame myself- I was in an extremely abusive relationship for 7 years, have been out of it since 2009. I vowed I would never allow myself to be in a situation like that again. Now I am stronger and know my worth- I refuse to accept the behavior im seeing and keep pushing my husband to respect my emotional needs, but he is like a brick wall, he takes no responsibility and either argues, or runs away from any form of real, honest communication. 
Ever since I found out I was pregnant it has been awful. I feel so sad and worried about the future and keep wishing that I'd never married him. I would like to work on my marriage but At the same time I feel so resentful that even in my condition in the one worrying about these things.
Also I'm living and working in his country- my family and friends are all back home and his family aren't too friendly. 
Sorry for the long rant I'm just so tired and fed up.

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