Its a boy, and all i want to do is cry. Feeling like a horrible person.

I'm a construction worker... I drive those "big yellow tractors" that boys just love to play with. I come home covered in dirt to a husband who watches football, NASCAR and hockey all day... I just wanted some pink glitter & ponies & cute fluffy stuffed animals in my life. I'm surrounded by boy stuff all the time, so I guess I was just hoping for a girl. Weelllllll..... Of course, its very clearly a boy.

Did anyone else want to cry after finding out the gender? I'm finding it hard to even be excited at all. Yes, Austin Connor Steele will be very much loved, like... We'll keep him I guess (haha). I was just really hoping for a girl, and I feel very guilty for that. I've been on the verge of tears since we found out.