What was your miscarriage like?

But...I was just wondering if anyone would want to share their experience from an early loss. I'll share mine:

My husband returned home from deployment on April 3rd. I was not on BC since he left because we knew we would want to try for a baby when he got home. I was too terrified to do it all by myself while he was gone for 9 months on top of teaching and taking care of my then 5 year old daughter who has type 1 diabetes and celiac disease. Anyways, as expected we had lots of sex  and used plan b I think twice or 3 times from April to the end of May. It made my cycles a week shorter each time I took it. 

My LMP was May 31st  and lasted my normal 4 days. We wanted to get pregnant in July but that didn't happen. I ended up conceiving in June sometime. I had oral surgery June 1st and had some major pain meds that I could not tolerate and just about went to the hospital because it was becoming difficult to breathe. I couldn't tell if I made myself pass out or it was just easier to sleep. So in top of the pain Med I took only one time, and I'll never take again, I toon about 800mg of Advil several times a day for about a week. I also started physical therapy for lower back pain that same week. I'm 28 and have degenerative disk disease in my L4-L5. 

Decided to take a pregnancy test on June 25th and it came back positive. I was super excited and gave my hubs a present (a book and hpt) he was so excited. I called my OBGYN the next day to set up n appointment. I went in July 8th and he just did a physical exam and said I was still very early (obviously) and told me to come back in about 2 weeks and he'd do a vaginal ultrasound. I went back on the 24th and all we saw was a yolk sac. He said it was very well formed which he thought was good and what looked to be a flicker in the tissue below it. He said to come back in a week. Went back in July 30, my daughter's birthday, and confirmed what I had been panicky about. The yolk sac got larger and still no fetal pole. At that point I should have been more than 8 weeks along. I decided I'd wait a week to see if I'd miscarry naturally, but it never happened. I ended up taking misoprostol. I thought surely it would work taking the pills the first time. And boy did I battle myself with taking them. It was a horrible decision to have to make. I ended up taking 5 days worth of those pills 5 at a time. It never worked! I was devastated. My body did not want to let go and I regretted taking them at that point.  I went back to my ob and this time he told me to take them vaginally. I did and it began working. I started miscarrying the next day on the 19th of August. I had to stay home from school. I had massive blood clots and tissue loss. It was horrific. They were the size of my palm...huge, dark red and the bleeding was gushing bright red. Every time I would sync it would pour out of me. My on told me to expect something the size of a big marble. Yeah right!!!! It most definitely was not.     I stood in the shower until there was not more hot water and collected the big pieces in a cup so that it wouldn't clog the drain. It was crazy and mortifying. I still bled pretty heavily for several weeks and had to run home on my very first day of teaching because I bled through my pad and it started gushing everywhere (August 25th). I bled throughout the month of September. 

I had 2 days of spotting on October 9th and 10th. Then AF showed up on October 28th and lasted about 8 days, spotted again through the month. AF showed up November 30th and lasted 7 days. December has been the most "normal" cycle I have had since May. Hubby and I have BDed many times this month hoping this will be our month. Just scared that because of the miscarriage and how much tissue I lost that nothing will be normal or easy ever again. I hope I'm wrong. 2 different apps say that was to get AF on December 31st and the other says the 6th. I am pretty sure I didn't ovulate till way later than expected. I'm thinking the 28th or 29th. So of course a hpt would not show if I were pregnant yet but good thing is AF did not show :) maybe she'll stay away.