Second pregnancy and nervous about birth

Don't make fun, but this is baby number two, and I'm more nervous than I was with the 1st one. I dread giving birth this time around. I say I got this to friends all the time. But I really don't lol. I want him to stay in there forever lol. The last time I gave birth was 8 years ago!!! And I felt more prepared and more secure than I do with this one. Maybe it's the fact that this time around I'm single. With no real support or partner...who knows! But I want this little boy to stay in there as long as possible and not come at 37 weeks like his older brother. I'm not ready yet!