The sleepless struggle

Ugh ugh ugh ugh. It's 3:55am and I am WIDE AWAKE. Have been for about an hour and a half. I'm cursed. I'm cursed because I can't sleep without one of those portable fans (it's the sound and the cool air that I need). But at about 2:30 the damn fan decided to break or something and started making ridiculously concerning noises. So I had no choice but to turn it off and now I want to cry. I have to get up at 6:45 and I'm so exhausted. Any other mamas on here that can't sleep without some white noise? Always torn on if I want to use a white noise machine for my daughter because, on one hand, it does help me sleep better. But on the other hand I absolutely CANNOT sleep without it!!!!!!!! Downloading a fan noise on my phone now but it's not the same. Ugh. I'm just going to go make some chocolate milk.