Miscarried - not bleeding yet...?

We found out on Decmeber 29th that our baby didn't have a heartbeat and passed away around 6 weeks 2 days and this was our 8 weeks 1 day appointment. My midwife said it could take up to 8 weeks for my body to pass the baby. I know the baby is really small but I have been nervous. It's been 3.5 weeks since the baby passed away and I haven't experience a passing. All my pregnancy symptoms have gone away and my "normal" self if back. (not emotionally since I still randomly cry) 
 Has anyone experienced the baby not passing right away? I took a pregnancy test last night and lost it be im still positive. Which I knew would happen but was wishing my HCG was back to normal.  I just don't know what to expect. It feels as if I can't move forward emotionally bc I keep thinking is today the day... 
 Anyone out there understand?