Baby gender

So I had my anatomy scam today and we chose not to find out the sex. The ultrasound tech did not avoid scanning over the "lower area". I'm pretty sure I saw little boy parts one of the times but I'm not totally sure, and I didn't ask because I want the surprise. Since getting home though it is driving me crazy! I can't stop thinking about it and I'm regretting not finding out. 🙈 I thought I was totally content with either gender, but the thought of it being a boy makes me sad, not because it's a boy, but because my husband doesn't want any more kids and that means I would never get my little girl. I'm second guessing going team green because I don't want to be disappointed in the delivery room. I know in my head that I could NEVER be disappointed with my baby and that I'm just hormonal right now. Any advice from other team green mommas?