Just need a pick me up.

I know that for many of you, like me TTC is hard. It's been 2 years, and I have friends and family accidentally getting pregnant left and right. Neither of us have fertility problems as far as we know, it's just not happening. I've been getting kind of down lately, and wondering if it will ever happen for us. I tried going 2 months without testing left and right and getting me hopes up. And I was pretty hopeful that that would work to ease my mind And stress but it isn't.  And I'm starting to feel my period creep up on me. I am 4 days to my AF  and took a test ofcourse it was negative. I'm almost positive I will start this week. I am in a strange depression, and all I want is to not be told "it will happen" or "just be patient, God has his plans" please someone tell me I'm not the only one going through this. Thanks for those who took the time to read, I'm new on here and don't have a friend to talk to. I could really use one. Ty for your time.