I always booked my appts for when he was not in class so I never understood. While he was in school I supported us a lot finically. Since he was going to school 5 days a week I had to work constantly to be able to afford everything for our little girl who was coming. Months passed and at the beginning of June my little girl was born. 

He fell asleep my whole labor, I only had my mom to help me through the horrendous labor pains. 

After she was born she was put in the nicus care for about 4-5 days due to not breathing at birth. I spent every single day and night there as soon as I was discharged and he only came in once the whole time she was there, other than the first day she was born. From then to no he has seen her in total less than 24 hours. He has payed zero money in months. He always says he's going to come over, then ditches us for the bar or his "buddies". The amount of times I've stayed awake waiting for him, just for him to ignore me is insane. I've given him more chances than I can count. He says he "wants things to work" but his actions prove much differently. He has no desire to chance and he never wants to see his own daughter! When he's here, he is miserable and only stays about 15 min. He loves to make everyone thing he is a fantastic father and let everyone believe he is here all the time. When in reality, his own daughter doesn't even know who he is. She cries when he holds her as if he is a stranger. It breaks my heart. I don't understand how someone can go from caring and supportive, to this. I need to do what is best for my little girl, and if he isn't interested then I have no problem doing this on my own. I don't need his money, I just wish he cared enough to support her and be there for her. 

Any of you other mommys in a similar situation? The heartbreak is unreal 💔