Needing to share my hurt

So I've been TTC for 9 months and in August 2015 I had been TTC for 3 months and finally got a bfp which I sadly lost😞 it's been 6 months since then and I have yet to conceive. I had a glass of wine the night before my bfp and I can't help but blame myself although I know it cannot be because of that. I just try to find any reason to blame myself💔 my heart goes out to those who have experienced any kind of loss👼🏼