Grieving while pregnant

My father passed away a month ago (December 5th, 2015 to be exact) and I ended up becoming pregnant just recently after by a bit of surprise. How do you deal with the grief of losing someone so dear and close to you while being pregnant for the very first time?? I feel like this baby Is a special gift hand picked by him from heaven, but when I think about it I just cry!! I really wish he was here to be apart of this new adventure in my life. Its a very tough balance.