Im not trying to be gross but im curious

I'm with my partner of 3+years and we are healthy and clean and also each others firsts .... I'm on the pill and we use condoms but I hate them so much it irritates me and makes me 100% numb .... I am considering the in arm implant birth control.... But I can't stop wondering ......

Well how does it feel when it goes inside of u with out a condom ? Is it smooth or does it feel like stinking jiggly jello up there.... Does it feel good ?

I've serious never felt anything before ... Because the condoms numb me