Please help...

Ok... I don't know if this is even the right place to post but I really need help. I just got back from Nashville yesterday night. I know this is awful but I was going to hang myself in a closet while my husband left the hotel. We had been fighting and I'm going thru some very difficult things right now. Please don't judge. I got scared and called him right away. That thought shouldn't have crossed my mind but it did... After my husband calmed me down.. We went downtown.. I had a couple of drinks and felt somewhat better. I went to see pyschic and immediately she started telling me things that only I knew. She also said two people who have passed are with me. One, my sons father ,love of my life who recently just passed . and two, my grandmother who comitted scuicide at 36. She said they are with me at all times. My guardian angels. Everyone tells me Im so much like my grandmother. Looks and everything. The psycic said she is very attached to me and watches over me and wants to end the pain/ chain of heartache with me. Whatever that means... She described my sons father physically . said that he has a very important message for me and can't move on until it is told. I loved this man with everything in me. He was my best friend. My world flipped when he suddenly passed. I don't have a lot of money.... And I know mediums can be sometimes pricey... Please if you can help me or know of anyone let me know.. It would mean the world to me. She said that it would help me move on as well... Sorry its such a long post but I have no one to talk too.. Thank you in advance.