I am the most awkward person

I have always been the dumb blonde and the goofy girl or ditsy whatever you wanna call it. As I get older I realize how freaking awkward I am. I fumble over my words and the stuff I say just sounds stupid to me ugh it drives me crazy. I already have horrible anxiety so its just like the icing on the cake that I am such a bad "speaker." Am I alone?? I mean does this describe any of you?