I had a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks. Had to shove these stupid pills in my vagina to start the miscarrying process on the 30th, because my body wouldn't on its own.. Probably, honestly the worst thing I ever had to do... And ever since that horrible ass day, it feels like shit on top of shit keeps adding up on me. Me and my boyfriend have been struggling with finances within the last month because we had a bunch of stupid fees for having my dog there. Ended up having to pay $1200 for a freaking single bedroom apartment just for one month because of the fees. Took us until the 9th to finally get rent together, a day before we would of been evicted. My family knows we're struggling because of this fine on top of all of our other bills, and instead of a hi, how are you feeling you doing okay? I get lectures. Lectures about money. How to spend it. What I need to do to better my life. On top of that shit, my bestfriend since we were in 7th grade was probably my most excited friend about my pregnancy. Cried when she saw the baby clothes we got as a Christmas gift. Told her about the missed miscarriage, and all I got was a "I'm sorry boo" and nothing since the 30th. Had another guy best friend that ditched me because his girlfriend didn't like it. My family bitches at me about money and life lessons all the time, plus they weren't a fan of me being pregnant in the first place.. I have all these problems going on and no one to talk too.. And when ever I try to talk to my boyfriend he gets so over welmed, and salty about everything. I get it because he's going threw the grieving process as well losing our baby, and our financial struggles.. But it just literally sucks having no one to talk too. And all the shit just keeps adding up and making me more and more unstable and emotional. It just sucks not even having my boyfriend to talk to.. However, for the most part, our relationship is pretty fantastic.. Just seems like when ever I'm upset, he becomes defensive for nothing.. And it causes more problems than resolving. Sorry for the pointless post.. Just feels a bit good to type out all this bullshit.